Over
the years in my efforts to make sense of life I have read broadly and
appreciatively from many sources, from many faith traditions, from many
disciplines of study. Often I have found
in this pursuit marvelous insight, sometimes just a turn of phrase that opens
up a seeming universe of new and richer meaning. Still when all is said and done I believe
almost all I’ve learned comes down to a very few basic principles taught by
Jesus. One, the first, is the
fundamental necessity of getting over oneself.
This we looked at in my last post.
The second principle of
Jesus that is absolutely fundamental to understanding how life works is to get
over whatever you’re attached to, to somehow get unstuck from all the things
that keep you from really living. Jesus
says this often, in many ways, in many of his stories, in many of his
encounters, one of the most famous being with the rich young ruler in Matthew
19. But the most startling way he said
it is in Luke 14:25-27, “Large crowds were traveling with Jesus, and turning to them he
said: ‘If anyone comes to me and does
not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and
sisters – yes, even his own life – he cannot be my disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and
follow me cannot be my disciple.’”
This is, of course, a
shocking text, that we are to hate our fathers and mothers, our wives
and children, our brothers and sisters – that we are to hate those to whom we
are most naturally bound. So what’s
going on? Didn’t Jesus speak of love all
the time and didn’t he undeniably love his own mother? It’s
helpful to remember, I think, that Jesus is so much more Eastern than readers in twenty-first-century America
suppose, and he has this way about him that only Eastern masters have: the
stunning paradox, the apparent non sequitur, the seemingly outlandish proposal
– “Gouge out your eye,” “Cut off your hand,” “Sell all that you have,” or “Oh,
hate your father and mother” – to break up our patterns of thought, to disrupt
our complacency, to smash our clichés and platitudes, to force us to look at
life again and think. It’s almost what a
Zen master would say. And I think there
is a certain truth to that.
Perhaps the answer,
however, is simpler still; perhaps it lies in the real meaning of the Semitic
word for “hate” (or the word translated “hate” here), because the word means
“to turn away from, or to detach
yourself from.” There is nothing
of the emotion we experience in the expression “I hate you.” Jesus is warning his followers, “If you
cannot detach or get unstuck from your father or mother, from your wife or
children, or from your brothers or sisters, you cannot really follow me.”
Certainly this is true
in this particular historical moment, Jesus setting out resolutely for Jerusalem , knowing he will
be killed there, but this is also timeless, universal truth that goes to the
heart of being alive. This is brilliant insight that the
wisest have always known. Whatever you
cling to in life, whatever you have convinced yourself you cannot be happy
without, has “potential
nightmare” written all over it.
It may be a person, a place or an outcome.
Think about it; most
of your misery in life comes from the things you’re attached to. Think of the things you cling to in life and
see them for what they are – nightmares that cause you excitement and
pleasure on the one hand (and in small doses) but also worry, insecurity,
tension, anxiety, fear and unhappiness on the other (and often in large doses). And in fact you keep going through that cycle. You find something or someone or some outcome
you convince yourself you can’t be happy without. You do have these moments of exquisite
pleasure. Then fear (fear that this will
all be lost), and worry, anxiety and unhappiness. Then pleasure again. And then worry. And pleasure and worry. And you’re completely missing out on life, on
all the people God gives you, on all the things God gives you, and on all the
outcomes he makes possible, some of which are more glorious than the one you’re
stuck on. Life is giving you so much,
but all you can see is the thing you cannot be happy without. Yes, things are always coming together and
falling apart, and coming together again and falling apart again, but often it’s
their falling apart that creates space for what is new and better.
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